Yeah today was my last day of school. Fucking YEAH! And next year Ill be in the 10th grade or whatever its called.....And on May  27, 2007 Im going to trun 17!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah....anyway otehr then that my life really sucks at the moment. My (ex) best friend just ripped my real best friends heart out and broke it in 2. So now April is with all the preeps and Anthony, Angus, Bobbi and Me are truning away. Not to say almost all my friedns are leaving: Erin, Amber, Skylie, Shi, Cassie, Anthony, Chris, Shawn, and maybe Angus and Bobbi. But one thing Angus is my blood brother so thaat really dosent matter. But yeah what do I have to look for next year? A jack-ass bitch slut to make my life suck even badder. And being sick AGAIN at this time dose not help much. So I wish I could be like Ukitake and stay home a lot. I dont know what I want may be a hug or...a good Aizen/Gin yaoi's that may make me a bit better. So thats it for now thank you for your time!
 
Love ya Emo Gin

Song Title: Why?
By: IV drip for 2

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Why am I so different?
Why is everyone a clone?
Why am I so tried?
Why do I fill so alone?
Why is this not for me?

Shut up go home its not like you love me,
I pass you after being alone,
It was all a joke,
I read the note of my love for you,
As of now I sit alone,
Yelling into the darkness,
I miss your smile,
I have taken down our pitchers,
I have put away your favorite blanket,

My breathlessness is bleeding,
I crash the car in night,
Just to die,
At the last moment
I’m in your arms,
Your kissing my forehead,
And then rain falls upon my lifeless lips,
So let me slip away,
Just to let you know I don’t fill any pain.


I fill your lips on my,
I fill your heart beat slow as is my,
Would you care,
That my hope dangles on this string?
I’m tattooed by your love,
Would you care if my slowly lifeless by falls?
I didn’t see tell it was to late,
Would you care if I confess my love to you?
I cry inside cuz my heart is bleeding,
If i cant tell you then my life will fade,
What do I do for you?

For once I know releses,
To be able to write this down,
And not be around,
I love the feeling of not feeling,
What isn’t a possibility,
I write as I yell,
And no one can say anything about me,
But as I jump and scream into the darkness,
I feel out of breath and I fall upon my bed,
Looking at the closet door,
I can feel eyes set upon me,
I turn to find something of love.

Why dose this feel so good to write?
Why do I feel?
Why cant I stop my life?
Why am I not a clone?
Why am I just so wrong?
Why am that person?
Why am I the one?
Why am I not like the others?
Why cant I just sit and look into the darkness clones call life?

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OK this isn’t Betaed yet but I got to post it cuz if I don’t then it will be all for nothing. Thank you for not hating me.

Emo Gin

Bleach- Bleed for Me 

This ones sad...  
Seven nation army. Bleach Amv-White stripes
This one has one of my fav songs and it cool...
Soldier Side
This ones just SUPER!  
Ukitake and Shunsui Tribute
This is just funny and good
With You - Gin & Kira Tribute
I got to put one of my fav yaoi vids in...

Deidly word
By: Emo Gin
Band: IV drip for 2

Doctor, Doctor give me something; 
This pain is killing me; 
Don’t you have something for a torn heart? 
I can’t feel the feeling of love; 
For I am ripped in tow; 
In love with him; 
In love with another; 
Who do I stay with? 
Who do I fight for? 
 
[ Chorus ] 
The doctor looks me over; 
He says to keep fighting; 
But you don’t have what it takes; 
To put me back together; 
 
I can’t win the war in my soul; 
I feel this fear and it’s so very cold; 
I look though the window of my hospital room; 
And my heart breaks, rips me more; 
The tears run down my face; 
Am I dying with a sad look? 
 
[ Chorus ] 
The doctor looks me over; 
He says to keep fighting; 
But you don’t have what it takes; 
To put me back together; 
 
I can’t stand this heart break; 
Why? Is this fare? 
For someone to die; 
With this sad fear; 
The sad look on his face; 
But the laughing of another; 
All I need to be saved is… 
All I want you to say is… 
This will keep my heart beating… 
One of you has to power to save me… 
 
[ Chorus ] 
The doctor looks me over; 
He says to keep fighting; 
But you don’t have what it takes; 
To put me back together; 
 
The beat of my heart slows; 
My head stops spinning; 
My world is going black; 
The ash of my flame going out; 
And I die in the hospital bed; 
With your eyes watching; 
But just before, I see you say… 
The word that could have saved me… 
The word that puts a smile on my face as I am dying; 
You saved me from hell; 
You helped my broken wound; 
That word was “I love you” 
 
[ Ending Chorus ] 
The doctor looks me over; 
He says I’ve stopped fighting; 
But he had the word that could have saved me; 
He put my heart together; 
But this didn’t keep me from dying. 


Jsut to let you know I have not got this Beta and Im super sleepy so its got alot of spelling mistacks.
Sorry for yelling and getting mad at you Soi Fong.