You're never gonna fit in much, kid,But if you're troubled and hurt,

My fan fic

2007-06-11T18:30:03Z

Fandom: Bleach AU
Title: Mercury Rising
Pairing: Past Gin/Kira
Rating: PG
Beta: No beta so if you want to Beta this you can and then E-mail it to MASH7704@Netscaepe.net.

Themes: From Autumn to Ashes - Mercury Rising, Dark.

Warning(s): Sad and violence and I’m Dyslexic so if I have a hole lot of miss spelled words I’m sorry and that’s also why I let it up to some one to Beta.

This is want your life has been reduced to, you sitting in your one bedroom apartment with no more then just your mattress now, after he left you throughout anything that smelled like him. You get calls from Renji and Momo saying and asking things that make you cry even harder now, just wishing you would pick up. But still you never do.

All the strings have been pulled out from the blinds and all the lights turned off, so the room is nothing but black and gray.

Your television screen is now smeared with blood from you knuckles after trying to punch it out but underestimated its strength, or maybe you just weren’t trying hard enough.

All your old photo’s of the two of you are now laying on the floor, after looking through them, you took the box and through it at the wall with the blood smeared television.

You now lay on your bed with a blanket over only your legs after over dosing on pain killers. But you still wake up to a startling knock at the door. But sadly you can’t stand to answer the door. But you only greet the visitors with one short statement.

“Hello my first name is Distance and I really don’t care if I never wake up again!” You yell from your bed.

“Kira! Come on man let us in! Oh wait the door’s unlocked…” Renji’s voice sounds so distant that you think they are leaving but the door opens.

“KIRA-KUN!” Momo rushes to your side and sits with her knees under her. She looks down at you and frowns. Your skin in as cold as ice, like the room, and yet you can’t feel.

“What have you done to your self?” She asks you and you can see the tears in her eyes.

“Momo, I think we should get him to a hospital…” Renji said as he looks down at you and holds the bottle of pain killers out to Momo.

+ - + - + - + - + - +

OK so I may add onto this chapter or I may make more chapters. Its up to you! If there are people out there who read the stuff I write. I have to say I do no own Bleach or the song Mercury Rising by From Autumn to Ashes. Well I hope you liked and vote on more chapters or adding on to this on.

emokid_ginlove @ 2007-05-30T00:09:00

2007-05-30T07:22:04Z

emokid-ginlove is distressed.

If it's not one thing, it's another. Your life is a pitiful wreck, and it's all you ever write about. Why don't you at least make up a happy story for once. Your friends would appreciate that.

wanna know your lj's moodring color? enter your user name and hit the button. (discussion thread)

A) If its not one thing its another
What I have to say: ummm I dont know what to say to that

B) Your life is a pitiful wreck
What I have to say: Wow thats true...mybe I should..wait what should I do then?

C) And thats all you ever write about
What I have to say: Umm thats how I get my feelings out

D) Why don't you at least make up a happy story for once
What I have to say: I wouldnt trun out right..come on

E) Your friends would appreciate that.
What I have to say: What you "appreciate" it?

Oh well at lest Im not as bad off as Skippy...

Skippy-D-Roy is emotionally distant.

I bet no one's surprised that you never post your current mood. In fact, I bet most of your friends are so sick of you locking them out of your life that they hate you behind your back. Shame.

wanna know your lj's moodring color? enter your user name and hit the button. (discussion thread)

lol but the funny thing is Skip dosent get on anymore cuz no one but I talked to him.....

Love ya Emo Gin

emokid_ginlove @ 2007-05-25T15:17:00

2007-05-25T22:19:24Z

Yeah today was my last day of school. Fucking YEAH! And next year Ill be in the 10th grade or whatever its called.....And on May 27, 2007 Im going to trun 17!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah....anyway otehr then that my life really sucks at the moment. My (ex) best friend just ripped my real best friends heart out and broke it in 2. So now April is with all the preeps and Anthony, Angus, Bobbi and Me are truning away. Not to say almost all my friedns are leaving: Erin, Amber, Skylie, Shi, Cassie, Anthony, Chris, Shawn, and maybe Angus and Bobbi. But one thing Angus is my blood brother so thaat really dosent matter. But yeah what do I have to look for next year? A jack-ass bitch slut to make my life suck even badder. And being sick AGAIN at this time dose not help much. So I wish I could be like Ukitake and stay home a lot. I dont know what I want may be a hug or...a good Aizen/Gin yaoi's that may make me a bit better. So thats it for now thank you for your time!

Love ya Emo Gin

Death Note The First Movie

2007-05-21T03:56:30Z

SO I just watched the first Death Note Movei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its was the best but I think at The Last Name will be better. Although I have not yet got to watch the anime or read the magna I am so DONT TELL ME! lol but anyway Ill have to get up the pics of me as L. Yes L is my fav person and LightXL is the best yaoi in the show and note that its LightXL not LXLight. L is the uke he couldnt be seme if he wanted to.lol. But as for that AU on Bleach its gonna take alot longer then I hoped but I will sometime get it up. And for my beta I dont want to sound rude or anything but if you could get the chapters to "Story of a little boy" to me soon it qould make me happy. What else wht else? I dont know....

Well then love ya

Emo Gin

My real first name?

2007-05-08T00:26:25Z

So today I had to get inroled into a new school. Cuz the other one kicked me out. Why? Well lets jsut say the Teachers didnt like the new paint jobs on the side of the school I thou liked the painted red and black flag with an A on it. But thats anuther story. So today I go in and sit down with my Dad at this new school the man looks at my ~~Rap Sheet~~ I mean school record. Well my grades are SO GOOD. ANd he syas after he looks at all my nice A+'s and says "I think we have a new student." The he gose and reads what iv done and why I hop from school to school and says "Well I think we can hand this." My Dad laughed, he knows what Im able to think of and have the guts to do. Well then he says "Its nice to have you here Ms. ...how do you say your name?" So I think of my name Ryou Gekko and say "Ryou, Gekko Ryou." and then he says "No its slepped l-e-a-r-i-n..." I think for a moment about this and my Dad says "Oh her name is Learin Gekko but she gose by Ryou Gekko." I look at him and almost punch him in the face. But latter he tells me that Learin was the name he gave me when Mother was out and couldnt tell the names. So my Dad names me Learin And my brother Lucis...What the FUCK! He has never told me this in my 17--years of life. So I ask why havent you ever told me and he says "Well I didnt think you would like the name I havent told Ryuu ether. But it was only cuz your Motehr wasnt awake to give you a name." So my real full name is: Learin Ryou Gekko. WTF? What do you think?

The Q of the day is: Do you think my Dad should have told Ryuu and me?

A. Yes
B. No
C. YES! WHY THE FUCK DIDNT HE?
D. No cuz it wasnt Ryous "real" name.

Love ya Emo Gin

PS this is ta Fag we painted
ANd by we I mean Angus, Kevin and ME and now our Mothers and Fathers are putting us in the same school AGIEN. I love that.

Lost and found...

2007-04-30T03:06:26Z

Ok well for all you who care for me, my Motehr was found in England yesterday and now has to live with us. So now I have my atupid ass twin Brother Leo who is gong off to the Military Academy in 5 days, my Dad is gong to Texas in 3 days and will be there for 4 days and Mother is coming home with drugs and drinks and stuff like that, so why dose this have to happen? Who cares I will always have Angus to help me. But a hug for some of you could help. lol. But Im happy my Mothers not dead but put her some where else DAM IT! but any ways I have changed my LJ layout cuz the other one was old and what not. But I dont feel good so Im gong to read a Yaoi. latter!

Emo Gin

emokid_ginlove @ 2007-04-15T20:11:00

2007-04-16T04:15:05Z

Song Title: Why?
By: IV drip for 2

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Why am I so different?
Why is everyone a clone?
Why am I so tried?
Why do I fill so alone?
Why is this not for me?

Shut up go home its not like you love me,
I pass you after being alone,
It was all a joke,
I read the note of my love for you,
As of now I sit alone,
Yelling into the darkness,
I miss your smile,
I have taken down our pitchers,
I have put away your favorite blanket,

My breathlessness is bleeding,
I crash the car in night,
Just to die,
At the last moment
I’m in your arms,
Your kissing my forehead,
And then rain falls upon my lifeless lips,
So let me slip away,
Just to let you know I don’t fill any pain.

I fill your lips on my,
I fill your heart beat slow as is my,
Would you care,
That my hope dangles on this string?
I’m tattooed by your love,
Would you care if my slowly lifeless by falls?
I didn’t see tell it was to late,
Would you care if I confess my love to you?
I cry inside cuz my heart is bleeding,
If i cant tell you then my life will fade,
What do I do for you?

For once I know releses,
To be able to write this down,
And not be around,
I love the feeling of not feeling,
What isn’t a possibility,
I write as I yell,
And no one can say anything about me,
But as I jump and scream into the darkness,
I feel out of breath and I fall upon my bed,
Looking at the closet door,
I can feel eyes set upon me,
I turn to find something of love.

Why dose this feel so good to write?
Why do I feel?
Why cant I stop my life?
Why am I not a clone?
Why am I just so wrong?
Why am that person?
Why am I the one?
Why am I not like the others?
Why cant I just sit and look into the darkness clones call life?

~*~*~*~*~*~

OK this isn’t Betaed yet but I got to post it cuz if I don’t then it will be all for nothing. Thank you for not hating me.

Emo Gin

I'm not much...

2007-04-15T05:35:06Z

Find my LJ Mojo!

friendly: 5%
promiscuous: 0%
random: 8%
wise: 5%
cool: 0%
hard to get: 0%

Wow I never know I was so not....may things......
But one GOOD thing is I get to have me surgery!!!! Yeah me!
Well wish me luck...wait I was born with luck...still I could use some with all the health problems and love problems and family problems and life problems...wait ill end this now!

I HATE HOSPITALS!!!!!!!!

2007-04-07T19:45:52Z

OK get this I can have my surgery on my arm becuase I'm underweight or something. Now Iv been in the dam Hospital for 3 days and should have been out today but I cant cuz I have to get 10 pounds on me before ths surgery and they say that I also have to wait tell my coughing fits go down to 1 a day a lest. I cant help it when I have to have a coughing fix. Grrrrrrrrr!

Resons I dont like Hospitals
1.I hate Doctors
2.I hate needles
3.I always have some problem when I got so they cant do something about what im there for
4.It smells like sick people
5.Ryuu likes to play with the stuff(needles come to mind)
6.I have to have a roomate with someone I dont even know
7.Doctors act like im 3 and think its my frist time in a Hospital
8.The beds feel so bad on my back
9.I cant watch anime on the TV so I have to get on you tube 24/7(Not that I dont liek YT i love it)
10.The heart moniters beep gets so annying.

sorry for that....I have had a bad day agian.
Love ya all
Emo Gin

and I cant find a Shonen-ai Aizen Gin Fan fic grrrr I have wanted to read one for so long!

MY FRIST VID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-31T21:42:50Z

emokid_ginlove @ 2007-03-24T23:36:00

2007-03-25T06:42:26Z

OK IM gong to sound stupid but how do you do that thing were on like storys and fan art it make something that looks like this

(Read Me)

And then when you click on it you see the story or what ever........I hope you under stand!

Emo Gin

I want to show some of my fav vids on You Tube!

2007-03-24T07:00:31Z

Bleach- Bleed for Me

This ones sad...
Seven nation army. Bleach Amv-White stripes
This one has one of my fav songs and it cool...
Soldier Side
This ones just SUPER!
Ukitake and Shunsui Tribute
This is just funny and good
With You - Gin & Kira Tribute
I got to put one of my fav yaoi vids in...

emokid_ginlove @ 2007-03-22T00:35:00

2007-03-22T07:36:26Z

Deidly word
By: Emo Gin
Band: IV drip for 2

Doctor, Doctor give me something;
This pain is killing me;
Don’t you have something for a torn heart?
I can’t feel the feeling of love;
For I am ripped in tow;
In love with him;
In love with another;
Who do I stay with?
Who do I fight for?

[ Chorus ]
The doctor looks me over;
He says to keep fighting;
But you don’t have what it takes;
To put me back together;

I can’t win the war in my soul;
I feel this fear and it’s so very cold;
I look though the window of my hospital room;
And my heart breaks, rips me more;
The tears run down my face;
Am I dying with a sad look?

[ Chorus ]
The doctor looks me over;
He says to keep fighting;
But you don’t have what it takes;
To put me back together;

I can’t stand this heart break;
Why? Is this fare?
For someone to die;
With this sad fear;
The sad look on his face;
But the laughing of another;
All I need to be saved is…
All I want you to say is…
This will keep my heart beating…
One of you has to power to save me…

[ Chorus ]
The doctor looks me over;
He says to keep fighting;
But you don’t have what it takes;
To put me back together;

The beat of my heart slows;
My head stops spinning;
My world is going black;
The ash of my flame going out;
And I die in the hospital bed;
With your eyes watching;
But just before, I see you say…
The word that could have saved me…
The word that puts a smile on my face as I am dying;
You saved me from hell;
You helped my broken wound;
That word was “I love you”

[ Ending Chorus ]
The doctor looks me over;
He says I’ve stopped fighting;
But he had the word that could have saved me;
He put my heart together;
But this didn’t keep me from dying.

Jsut to let you know I have not got this Beta and Im super sleepy so its got alot of spelling mistacks.
Sorry for yelling and getting mad at you Soi Fong.

random poll

2007-03-21T12:07:12Z

Who is you fav seme?

Who's your fav uke?

Who's your fav Yaoi couple?

How mush you like me in a 1-10.

emokid_ginlove @ 2007-03-21T03:02:00

2007-03-21T10:17:10Z

Im home from DC

Im just sad...I cnat think.........Im sitting in my room huging my pillow......I hate this.....I have fallen for Zack I love so mush but I still have fellings for Kenny.......its not good I just...........I lovee Zack cuz he talks to me he tells me things and we like one an other. But I think I still love Kenny.....Its killing me......I cant talk to my friends and I cant talk to Zack about it and Kenny dosent even talk to me.......I just want some one who love me as mush as I love them.....why? whats wrong with that but I cant get the felling of Kenny out and my hearts its just emptey there and I cant fill the space. I cant be with ether of them I want to I want to be loved by some one who l love the same way....why? Why the fuck cant I just be happy? I need help IM gong to die without someone soon. Why do I have felling for some one who doent even say hay to me in the hallway. I wish I had a Aizen to hug.help?

My bleach life! Yay Soi Fong we get hichted!

2007-03-15T00:39:30Z

emokid_ginlove @ 2007-03-13T17:49:00

2007-03-14T00:50:05Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	High
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

Yaoi days episode 5.(AizenXGin)

2007-03-09T22:34:16Z

We last letf Gin and he was meeting a young boy so let us join him....

Boy: Oh sorry mt name is Kira Izure, sir!

Gin: Its OK your the new seat in my squad?

Kira: Yes, Ichimaru-Vic-Captain!

Gin: OK well you can jsut call me Gin if ya want.

Kira: OK...umm..jave you had luch? My friend Renji forgot and I have a luch set left.

Gin: OK thanks!

(Gin sit at tree with Kira)

Its short but good!

Yaoi days episode 4.(AizenXGin)

2007-03-07T05:24:43Z

Last time Gin went Emo so Aizen would get pissed and leve him alone...T_T that didnt work to well...well now this is a 2 part episode...

(Gin walked into the 6th squad HQ and grabbed Byakuya and walked out)

Byakuya: What are you dong?

Gin: You know how you told me that if I went Emo Aizen would leave me along....

Byakuya: Yes, like in that song "The grils keep braking up with me cuz they say I look like a gril..." or something like that...why

(Gin twiched)

Gin: Byakuya, Aizen and I are gay!

Byakuya: Oh I thought Aizen was a girl...

(Gin punched Byakuya in the face realy, realy hard!)

Gin: I feel better...

(Gin walked off)

Part 2

(Gin walked down the path and saw a little blond girl sitting by a tree)

Gin: Are you OK Mis.

(The kid truned and to Gins eye it wasnt a girl but a BOY!)

Gin: OH IM sorry you looked like a gril!

Boy: Its Ok...It happens all the time...

Gin:*Laugh* Oh well can I sit with you?

Boy: Yes *Smiles*

Gin: Thanks by the way Im Ichimaru Gin, whats your name?

~*~*~**~**~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~*
To be con.

Taking over the WORLD!

2007-03-07T01:14:45Z

OK so Zack, Austin, me and other friends made this for my WORLD taking over...some will be at my side other will be pushed off a cliff...any way so I am gong to take over the WORLD one step at a time so Austin made this....

(If crossed out I have taken over)
~~(1) Sonic~~
(2) Shawnee
(3) Powt. County
(4) Oklahoma
(5) United S.
(6) North America
(7) World
(8) Galexcy
(9) Universe
(10) Milky way

And I need some people to help but this is what I got so far....

OverLord-Me(Aizen)
OverLord's Lover- Zack(my lover GIn)
Person who kills and hurt bad people- April(Evil Gin)
UnderLord- Dominc(Naruto)
S.S.- May
Day planner- Austin
Map making person- Megan

umm yeah thats all fowks

Oh and I have the Arrancar(All my cosplay friends) Army and all my Buddys who can brak my laws...lol and yes thats my my LV.com friends and You Tube friends....I have been like this all day and I think its all Aizen talking...Emo Gin isnt coming out today and Tobi isent ether...

Yaoi days episode 3.(AizenXGin)

2007-03-05T04:56:50Z

OK Gin go Emo in hopes Aizen will leave him alone...T_T I dont think that will happen but anyway this one is made for my Buddy Soi Fong...

(Gin walked into the squad house as Aizen looked up from some papers to see him and Aizens eyes wint wide.)

Aizen: Gin-chan why are you...ummm...you look odd.

(Aizen fround as he looked Gin over who now has a red highlight in his hair, eye liner, and band aids around his wrist)

Gin: Sorry I'm lat e coming in...some one made me go get my wrist fixed they said I was bleeding badly...

Aizen: Why wore your wrist bleeding?

(Aizen looked at his wrist)

Gin: Well you see last night I was looking up at the moon and thought about how no one loved me...so I tryed to kill myself but it didnt work to well. *sigh*

(Aizen jumped out of his chair)

Aizen: No my one and only Ichi-chan is sad cuz I havent shown him any love! *Cry*

Gins thinking: And Byakuya said gong Emo would make Aizen stop...mind note: ~~Hurt Byakayu~~ no KILL byakuya!

Beta needed!!!!!!!!

2007-03-03T19:53:35Z

OK I need a beta for my FanFic Story of a little boy. For all who know me know that its a Aizen Gin story. Well anyway....if you can beta then this is what I'm looking for in a Beta...

(1) Likes Bleach
(2) Can spell
(3) Isnt afrad to say well this part my be better it you add _____(You get the point)
(4) Will help me if they think I need help
(5) Can be friends
(6) Wont leave when needed
(7) Tell me before they leave or cant get to a Computer for a long time
(8) Wont make fun of my spelling and grammar mistakes(Im Dyslexic)
(9) Like Aizen and Gin and wont try to make Aizen eviler then he is...lol
(10) And you get the paoin just help, be with me. dont leave, tell me things...

Emo Gin/Aizen/Tobi

Love and Broken

2007-03-03T01:40:07Z

4 days into my trip with this class I dont know, well Ichi-chan(Zack) my boyfriend but other then him no one....

Well you see were all older then 14 so we get to run around by are selfs but have to have a lest 1 friends with us at all time so me and Zack went to the Washington Monumrnt and we sat by the pond...yes I had my backpack with me cuz it has all my little things in it...so this Guy walks up to me hes in a black suit...ok so I was setting with Zack and was gong to get me poem book out and what not...so the man walks over a takes my bag away and dumped all my thing out onto the ground(Yes girl things to) and my cam and my poem book and my skech book and alot of other thing that I didnt want my boy friend to see like pades and all...so the man says hes sorry fot the mistake .....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
and so then we set for about an hour and so on....we stood up to walk away and Tom Baker Push me into the pound braking my arm.....so now Im in Washington DC with a broken arm, then I was just in my room with Zack after 4 hours of PAINFULL setting with my arm and what not and my fucking Tuberculosis hit me...man iv been coughing and thoughing up bllod for almost 7 hours no stop...thanks to Zack he helped me and only freked once...but now I feel so bad and he had to go some plaese and Im all alone..*Crys Crys* but my strees has gone down and Im feeling better but I miss you all and Soi Fong! *Cough Cough* gosh I am gong to bed im achi and sleepy and Zack isnt here to help me do Cross Wrods so its boring or I may go read a Aizen X Gin yaoi or something....BAI BAI for now...

Emo Gin/Tobi/Aizen

The Cherry Blossem Tree story....

2007-03-02T02:35:06Z

Ok as you know im in Washington DC, and I just got put with my boy friend to go around DC...so Zack loves to know random thing and I love to know thing about my home Japan!!!!!!! So we found this Japan man(lol) so he told us the story of the Charry Blossom Trees and it so cool...well I must do this quick...but it like Byakuya(CBT) and GIn(Fox) I dont know if it true but its a cool story No beta....lets start...............

Never mind I have to go we got to do some odd thin thing in the living room of the plaes im in as so as I can

Class trip to DC

2007-02-28T22:43:36Z

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! MY FRIENDS GreenMoon666, Paperpendragon, Shaolinsfight, Vampircia and Yaoi_obsessed4 *Hugs all* I have to leave for DC tomarow and I wont be back tell 2 weeks....I will miss you all.......*Crys and Crys*

I have to stop and go pack see you in 2 weeks I hope to see some Yaois writen...lol bye bye I love you all and will miss you!

Tobi/Aizen *Runs away crying*

If you landed in Bleach and screwed things up... by biteme65
Name/Alias/SN:
Your best friend becomes:
You get married to:
But are sleeping with:
You kill:
Who has children with:
You shove Kon's spirit into:
And decide to adopt:
Who kills you finally?
But it's possible you'll come back as: